Change

It's been stuck in my head for days now,

A beautiful reminder of a God who causes change -

Who is causing change -

Tiny, slow changes,

For "change takes time".

I have felt it in myself lately,

The slow, little changes,

Changes in the way I feel,

In the things I think of

During those quiet moments,

Walking between tasks,

Taking a moment to breathe,

A moment to be.

I have noticed it in my music,

In the way I've been trying new things,

In a way moving forward,

Writing in a way that's more unique,

A way that speaks more to my heart,

And, hopefully, to the hearts of others,

In a way regressing

To the time a year and a half ago

When I was accidentally using bits of melody for more than one song,

Yet that, too, changed,

Improved,

And I pray that the same will happen again,

That I will continue to grow,

To change,

That, eventually, everything will work out

And end up better than it had been before.

I suppose it's all the change that has this song stuck in my head,

The change that has had me walking around humming,

Staring out car windows singing,

Sitting, thinking.

I remember reading about it on her website,

How that was the song that meant the most to her,

Still, now, though the song was from her first album,

Released in 1998.

It piqued my curiosity.

Since I was on the computer,

I went on YouTube,

Searched for the song,

And listened.

I could see why the song meant so much to her,

A beautiful metaphor,

A picture of an incredible, powerful God

Who brings the slow changes.

It spoke to my heart,

Still does.

That's probably why it's been stuck in my head so much lately,

Lyrics reminding me that He brings change,

That I need change.

River God
by Nichole Nordeman

Rolling River God
Little Stones are smooth
Only once the water passes through
So I am a stone
rough and grainy still
Trying to reconcile this river's chill

But when I close my eyes
and feel you rushing by
I know that time brings change
and change takes time
And when the sunset comes
my prayer would be this one
that you might pick me up
and notice that I am
just a little smoother in your hand

Sometimes raging wild
sometimes swollen high
never have I known this river dry
The deepest part of you
is where I want to stay
and feel the sharpest edges wash away

And when I close my eyes
and feel you rushing by
I know that time brings change
and change takes time
And when the sunset comes
my prayer would be just this one
that you might pick me up
and notice that I am
just a little smoother in your hand

Rolling River God
Little Stones are smooth
Only once the water passes through

This has been my prayer, too,

That I would be just a little smoother,

That time would bring change,

For I never want to stop changing,

Learning,

Growing,

Because I need change.

"Just a little smoother".

The bold, italicized words are lyrics to the song "River God" by Nichole Nordeman.  Many thanks to this incredible artist for her beautiful music.