The Color Green

I don't know why it is that some days are okay

And some are even wonderful

While some are just filled with struggle,

Me struggling still with the things I struggle with most.

I try to fill my head with other things,

Listen to Beth Moore talking about the mind as a sermon to start my day

And work while I listen to Rich Mullins' songs,

But the moments spent without those influences,

The moments where other influences have their chance -

Well, some days are okay,

Some are even wonderful,

But some days those moments get to me

And take root in my heart

And all the apathy and negative thoughts

Are back as though they'd never left,

And I know it's possible to be free,

But I can't seem to figure out how,

And I can't deny that I have conflicting desires.

I can't deny that I don't want what I should as much as I ought.

And it's a day when all those influences could easily be at their worst,

Long hours doing nothing,

Waiting,

In anticipation,

Me struggling,

Fighting,

Faltering,

Falling,

When the song stuck in my head for the past few days makes its appearance

And my heart is drawn to praise

For the blue of the sky

And the color green,

And the rocks that are crying out along with it.

Reasons 4296-4312 today,

Still seeking to know Him, 

For Him and His Glory to be foremost in my mind

And draw me to praise:

4296. He answers those who call to Him in their distress (Psalm 120:1)
4297. His people's help comes from Him (Psalm 121:2)
4298. He made heaven and earth (Psalm 121:2)
4299. His people's help comes from Him who made heaven and earth (Psalm 121:2)
4300. He will not let His people's foot be moved (Psalm 121:3)
4301. He keeps His people (Psalm 121:3)
4302. He who keeps His people will not slumber (Psalm 121:3)
4303. He who keeps His people will not sleep (Psalm 121:4)
4304. He who keeps His people will neither slumber nor sleep (Psalm 121:4)
4305. He is His people's Keeper (Psalm 121:5)
4306. He is His people's shade on their right hand (Psalm 121:5)
4307. He will keep His people from all evil (Psalm 121:7)
4308. He will keep His people's lives (Psalm 121:7)
4309. He will keep His people's going out (Psalm 121:8)
4310. He will keep His people's coming in (Psalm 121:8)
4311. He will keep His people's going out and His people's coming in (Psalm 121:8)
4312. He will keep His people's going out and His people's coming in from this time forth and forevermore (Psalm 121:8)

 
Counting 10,000 Reasons to worship Him: 

(Sylvia's already made it to - past - 10,000!  So amazing to think of who He is like this!)

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Counting in community: