I hate being busy.
Especially with schoolwork.
Most other things, I can do something about,
Schoolwork I can't do that with.
So I have been buried in schoolwork for the last several weeks,
And by buried, I mean it in the most literal sense figuratively possible,
Getting five hours of sleep at night,
Five hours of sleep becoming a great accomplishment - more than I'd been getting,
Doing homework or studying virtually every waking moment,
Barely any time to read my Bible,
Definitely no time to do any of the other things I like to do,
The things that make me feel closer to God . . .
Listen to long sermons,
I hate being busy.
I always end up feeling so distant,
And it is, it is my fault,
But there's also a sense in which part of the blame lies elsewhere,
With whatever has put all this on me,
Though it truly is still my fault for not being able to balance better,
Get more done more quickly,
Finally, I get through the worst of it,
Still not done, though.
I grab my camera to go up to the art building,
Take a picture of the object I made disappear.
I step out into the sunlight,
Just happen to glance up at the sky,
And suddenly I stop
And it's right there -
He's right there,
And there's been beauty all around me all this time,
And me - cooped up in my room -
I haven't even noticed it!
How can I feel He's so distant,
When all I have to do is look up
And suddenly I can feel as if maybe,
I might touch a bit of heaven,
Glimpse some tiny fraction of His glory?
Why do I feel so far away
When it's so obvious that He is right there -
And has been all along.
It seems like heaven really is breaking through,
I can't help it.
My hands go straight for my camera bag.
Who cares how much time it will take,
How many pictures I will snap?
I am standing before the Glory of God.
The only appropriate response is worship,
And worship I do,
So caught in beauty that my finger presses down 141 times,
Just because I saw Him in so many ways,
Just had to capture as many of them as I could.
Walking with my best friend the next day,
She went to talk to someone she knew,
Spend a minute catching up.
I felt a bit impatient,
Then I looked at the beautiful flowers,
In bloom right outside my door.
Then I looked up
And, oh, He was doing it again!
He outlined a beautiful, big, purple cloud
With so many other beautiful colors,
Highlighted it with sun,
And I just wanted my camera back,
Just for a moment.
My friend came back over.
I said, "Look!"
We stood there for a minute, marveling.
Finally, we had to turn around,
But I couldn't stop expressing my joy,
Joy at the wonder of Him.
I said it excitedly,
Out of that tiny little bit of insufficient, but growing, love and wonder in my heart,
"I love it when God does that."
And I do.
I really do.
Just these few today.
As I said, I've been so busy that counting hasn't been at the top of my priority list.
I've missed this, though,
This study of who God is.
Hopefully I'll have many more next week!
For now, though, numbers 932-954:
- He calls (1 Samuel 3:4)
- He calls again (1 Samuel 3:6)
- He comes and stands and calls (1 Samuel 3:10)
- He does things that make the ears of all who hear about them tingle (1 Samuel 3:11)
- He carries out everything He speaks against people and families – from beginning to end (1 Samuel 3:12)
- He keeps people's words from falling to the ground (1 Samuel 3:19)
- He continues to appear to His prophets (1 Samuel 3:20-21)
- He reveals Himself through His word (1 Samuel 3:21)
- Idols fall to their faces before His ark (1 Samuel 5:3)
- Idols break to pieces before His ark (1 Samuel 5:3)
- His hand is heavy on those who capture and keep His ark (1 Samuel 5:6)
- He afflicts the cities of the foreign nations who have His ark (1 Samuel 5:9)
- He throws cities into great panics (1 Samuel 5:9)
- He afflicts both young and old with outbreaks of tumors (1 Samuel 5:9)
- He brings death to fill cities with panic (1 Samuel 5:11)
- His hand is very heavy upon foreign cities housing His ark (1 Samuel 5:11)
- He afflicts cities such that those who do not die are afflicted with tumors (1 Samuel 5:12)
- He deals harshly with peoples (1 Samuel 6:6)
- He guides the cows straight toward their destination (1 Samuel 6:7-10)
- The cows He guides go straight, staying on the road all the way, never turning to the right or to the left (1 Samuel 6:10-12)
- He brings His ark safely to where it belongs (1 Samuel 6:13)
- He puts to death those who look into His ark (1 Samuel 6:19)
- No one can stand in His presence – He is so Holy (1 Samuel 6:20)
Counting 10,000 Reasons to worship Him:
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